07 - 01 - 2012
Dear blog,
Nothing much today, I went to buy my parent's stuff and went home straight after.
The feeling of balling suddenly came across my mind, and I asked Will to join.
Well, we played, but sadly, it's not my day, I really can't get myself to do my stuff.
All the matches we played were very very aggressive and it happened that one uncle roll his ankle while laying-up and the ankle broke, twisted, dislocated. It was disaster, I never saw an ankle dislocated like that and it sent the chill down my spine and scared the hell out of me. We called it a day after that, watching other philippine fellas played while reminiscing and deciding on changing the way I play.
Had a great dinner though, the famous boon tong kee chicken rice. It's damn good.
In all sincerity,
Kelvin.
Saturday, January 7, 2012
Friday, January 6, 2012
Bro's Talk
06 - 01 - 2012
Dear blog,
As expected, I had predicted that he had changed and here I am, finally knowing that， which is a good thing. Unfortunately, it's a sad story after all, It's too late for him and all I can do is to wish the best for him.
Had a man's talk with him for a while. I don't know how we started that but it started anyway. Reminiscing the past, the dark days where despise, anger, agony comes in for the time spent on family. I'm not proud of it, but I know that lotsa peeps went through the same thing. Well, after that unforgettable accident, I guess I really grew up. Learnt lotsa lessons from there, one of it is the importance of family and the fact that what a friend can do is only to certain limit and beyond that you have no other people to go to except for family. He realized that as well, but the price is too much, it will be his greatest regret. Saw the tears drop from his eyes, and for the first time, I know that he is enduring lotsa pain and wouldn't even talk about it to anyone. Hope he will be successful in the future time. God, please bless him and his family.
Oh God, I am really grateful that I still have the chance to make it right, though at times, I doubted my ability to do so. But, I have faith, that no matter what, if I give my heart and soul to whatever I do, I will make something out of it. God please give me strength, please guide and enlighten me through all of this.
In all sincerity,
Kelvin
Dear blog,
As expected, I had predicted that he had changed and here I am, finally knowing that， which is a good thing. Unfortunately, it's a sad story after all, It's too late for him and all I can do is to wish the best for him.
Had a man's talk with him for a while. I don't know how we started that but it started anyway. Reminiscing the past, the dark days where despise, anger, agony comes in for the time spent on family. I'm not proud of it, but I know that lotsa peeps went through the same thing. Well, after that unforgettable accident, I guess I really grew up. Learnt lotsa lessons from there, one of it is the importance of family and the fact that what a friend can do is only to certain limit and beyond that you have no other people to go to except for family. He realized that as well, but the price is too much, it will be his greatest regret. Saw the tears drop from his eyes, and for the first time, I know that he is enduring lotsa pain and wouldn't even talk about it to anyone. Hope he will be successful in the future time. God, please bless him and his family.
Oh God, I am really grateful that I still have the chance to make it right, though at times, I doubted my ability to do so. But, I have faith, that no matter what, if I give my heart and soul to whatever I do, I will make something out of it. God please give me strength, please guide and enlighten me through all of this.
In all sincerity,
Kelvin
Thursday, January 5, 2012
2012
05 - 01 - 2012
Dear Blog,
Well, I guess time really flies, isn't it?
Before I knew it, 2011 has ended. It's 2012 now..
Haven't given much thought for the new year's resolution. But one thing for sure, 'to be better' than the previous years, I don't know what and how, but I will be better..
It's be a hell of a challenge this year, Let's roll !!
Have been quite busy wasting time, ==
Hitting the gym, going out with friends.
Nothing much happens lately, it's been quite quiet and somehow I find it too silent, too peaceful, and too lonely..
Even when I tried hanging out with crazy dudes, still, it is not enough..
At the end of the day, when the moon is hanging onto the starry night sky, when things become serene, I find myself, alone, lying in the bed, with a somehow sad feeling, feels the emptiness all over again..
Well, It's not the first time though, so I suppose I'll do just fine..
:)
I went to my friend place yesterday, accompanying her, who has just moved to a new place. Unfortunately, in the mid-day, received a bad news from her that one of the ballers back in my hometown passed away, don't know the exact reason but it is quite sad, such a young age and his life ended just like that..
Human is fragile after all, gotta cherish for the fact that I am still living and breathing.
Anyway, Happy New Year..
In all sicerity,
Kelvin.
Dear Blog,
Well, I guess time really flies, isn't it?
Before I knew it, 2011 has ended. It's 2012 now..
Haven't given much thought for the new year's resolution. But one thing for sure, 'to be better' than the previous years, I don't know what and how, but I will be better..
It's be a hell of a challenge this year, Let's roll !!
Have been quite busy wasting time, ==
Hitting the gym, going out with friends.
Nothing much happens lately, it's been quite quiet and somehow I find it too silent, too peaceful, and too lonely..
Even when I tried hanging out with crazy dudes, still, it is not enough..
At the end of the day, when the moon is hanging onto the starry night sky, when things become serene, I find myself, alone, lying in the bed, with a somehow sad feeling, feels the emptiness all over again..
Well, It's not the first time though, so I suppose I'll do just fine..
:)
I went to my friend place yesterday, accompanying her, who has just moved to a new place. Unfortunately, in the mid-day, received a bad news from her that one of the ballers back in my hometown passed away, don't know the exact reason but it is quite sad, such a young age and his life ended just like that..
Human is fragile after all, gotta cherish for the fact that I am still living and breathing.
Anyway, Happy New Year..
In all sicerity,
Kelvin.
Sunday, December 4, 2011
It has finally ended,,
Little did I know, it's been around 5 months since I've decided to take the chances..
I was not alone, tagging along 4 amazing friends..
There's this one awesome guy, always positive, wise, hardworking and simply smart;
Another is damn hardworking, from the way I see it, he is the most hardworking guy, also smart.
Then there's these two brilliant girls, hardworking and adept.
Leaving me, who is damn lazy, always feel guilty whenever they are asking about how's the study going or whatsoever..
Anyway, time really flies, It ends on 4th December 2011, the big day.
After months of struggling, sacrifices, and hellish study, FINALLY, it all ended on yesterday.
Free, finally, though there's still two more exams to be handle on both this and the next Friday, where it should be TGIF.. I am not sure about whether the results are positive but I have tried my best and that's my best shots..
I believe the 5 of us have poured every inches of efforts in the studies. We may not pass, but we are a fighter; We fight for what we want and we fight till the end. The road was not easy, 5 books, 10 concepts, 240 questions, 6 hours of exam. We went through it. I am proud of them, and certainly proud of myself.
Learnt A lot during this distressing experience. It is just so valuable. Whatever the result it may turn out to be, it is all through hard works.
There's just no substitutes for hard work. You want it, you work into it. Plan it and work towards it, step by step. Stick to it and you are a real fighter. An individual worth to be respected.
It has finally ended..
I was not alone, tagging along 4 amazing friends..
There's this one awesome guy, always positive, wise, hardworking and simply smart;
Another is damn hardworking, from the way I see it, he is the most hardworking guy, also smart.
Then there's these two brilliant girls, hardworking and adept.
Leaving me, who is damn lazy, always feel guilty whenever they are asking about how's the study going or whatsoever..
Anyway, time really flies, It ends on 4th December 2011, the big day.
After months of struggling, sacrifices, and hellish study, FINALLY, it all ended on yesterday.
Free, finally, though there's still two more exams to be handle on both this and the next Friday, where it should be TGIF.. I am not sure about whether the results are positive but I have tried my best and that's my best shots..
I believe the 5 of us have poured every inches of efforts in the studies. We may not pass, but we are a fighter; We fight for what we want and we fight till the end. The road was not easy, 5 books, 10 concepts, 240 questions, 6 hours of exam. We went through it. I am proud of them, and certainly proud of myself.
Learnt A lot during this distressing experience. It is just so valuable. Whatever the result it may turn out to be, it is all through hard works.
There's just no substitutes for hard work. You want it, you work into it. Plan it and work towards it, step by step. Stick to it and you are a real fighter. An individual worth to be respected.
It has finally ended..
Sunday, November 20, 2011
Sin
It's been three years since that day..
That sinful day, my biggest mistake, my nightmare..
5 life, almost gone just like that,
Still 'member it like it was yesterday..
It still haunts me whenever November is coming..
Even when my birth certificate date is on November, simply couldn't get myself to celebrate it.
The worry I brought to my family n friends..
The shame I brought to myself..
I need a better word..
There's just no words to describe them..
Forgiveness, I just don't deserve it, even when I was given the chance to live for a second time..
The guilt, the sorrow, the pain..
It just won't fade..
It'll remain, forever..
Deep down in my heart..
All I can do, is to live.. To reminisce it, let it be my fuel to fight.. To repay my friends deeds, and most importantly, my family..
God.. from the bottom of my heart, with sincerity, I pray..
Bless the family with happiness, protect them from all harms..
Sincerely,
Sinful.man..
That sinful day, my biggest mistake, my nightmare..
5 life, almost gone just like that,
Still 'member it like it was yesterday..
It still haunts me whenever November is coming..
Even when my birth certificate date is on November, simply couldn't get myself to celebrate it.
The worry I brought to my family n friends..
The shame I brought to myself..
I need a better word..
There's just no words to describe them..
Forgiveness, I just don't deserve it, even when I was given the chance to live for a second time..
The guilt, the sorrow, the pain..
It just won't fade..
It'll remain, forever..
Deep down in my heart..
All I can do, is to live.. To reminisce it, let it be my fuel to fight.. To repay my friends deeds, and most importantly, my family..
God.. from the bottom of my heart, with sincerity, I pray..
Bless the family with happiness, protect them from all harms..
Sincerely,
Sinful.man..
Thursday, November 17, 2011
Fateful Encounter
It was midnight, when it all begun;
I was grabbing some drinks in a local bar, alone, broken.
I was sipping the last drop of the liquor, and surprisingly I haven't lost my consciousness which I should.
Everything just seems empty, I was surrounded by lotsa folks drinking, flirting and most importantly having fun. Nothing seems to really catch my attention until it happened.
'Hey, sweetie, come here and have fun with us. You will have a great great time.' said a half-conscious punk. He was 6 feet tall, with muscular body covered with tattoos of skull-like along his strong arms. He had a piercings along both of his ears, and face. He grabbed the girl's hand and won't let go. In that table, sat two of the punk's friends. One is big, fat, black and seems strong like a bear; While the other is skinny, still muscular though, with a scar in his face. The scar that can only be made with a sharp objects. It seems that the girl is in trouble, and no one, not even a soul in that bar, attend to the matter. The girl is indeed a chick with body that is so perfect, so perfect that it occurs to me that such body can only be seen in TV shows. Without a second thought, I deduct that she is a model or something.
The girl was struggling to escape from the grip of that punk. As she was struggling, a man, finally, I saw a kind souls, a gents, got into the conversation and not more than a second, the intensity can be felt in the whole bar. The man was pushed back and punched by that punk. The other two guys join in the bully. As they are busy dealing with the man, the girl come to my seats. The punks saw it and confronted me. ''suupp, dude, who dya think you are, stealing my girl away?' I was speechless, I barely know that girl. 'Err, no, no, no. . .' As I was trying to come up with something,the girl responded 'He is my man.'
What? I am her man?
What on earth is she talking about?
Who the hell is she?
Why would she say that?
I was caught in a confusion, I barely know that girl, and now, I am the one who is caught up in this mess. Oh, god, what should I do? I'm gonna end up like the man, beaten up, broken. What a luck!!
I was grabbing some drinks in a local bar, alone, broken.
I was sipping the last drop of the liquor, and surprisingly I haven't lost my consciousness which I should.
Everything just seems empty, I was surrounded by lotsa folks drinking, flirting and most importantly having fun. Nothing seems to really catch my attention until it happened.
'Hey, sweetie, come here and have fun with us. You will have a great great time.' said a half-conscious punk. He was 6 feet tall, with muscular body covered with tattoos of skull-like along his strong arms. He had a piercings along both of his ears, and face. He grabbed the girl's hand and won't let go. In that table, sat two of the punk's friends. One is big, fat, black and seems strong like a bear; While the other is skinny, still muscular though, with a scar in his face. The scar that can only be made with a sharp objects. It seems that the girl is in trouble, and no one, not even a soul in that bar, attend to the matter. The girl is indeed a chick with body that is so perfect, so perfect that it occurs to me that such body can only be seen in TV shows. Without a second thought, I deduct that she is a model or something.
The girl was struggling to escape from the grip of that punk. As she was struggling, a man, finally, I saw a kind souls, a gents, got into the conversation and not more than a second, the intensity can be felt in the whole bar. The man was pushed back and punched by that punk. The other two guys join in the bully. As they are busy dealing with the man, the girl come to my seats. The punks saw it and confronted me. ''suupp, dude, who dya think you are, stealing my girl away?' I was speechless, I barely know that girl. 'Err, no, no, no. . .' As I was trying to come up with something,the girl responded 'He is my man.'
What? I am her man?
What on earth is she talking about?
Who the hell is she?
Why would she say that?
I was caught in a confusion, I barely know that girl, and now, I am the one who is caught up in this mess. Oh, god, what should I do? I'm gonna end up like the man, beaten up, broken. What a luck!!
Sunday, November 13, 2011
A New Beginning
Hola,
It's been ages eh?
Been busy with lotsa stuff, school, additional exam.. or should I say, I'm too down to write..
Life's been good..
Finally found those guys and girls that makes my day, all the time..
One word to describe it 'Awesome'
It never crossed my mind that my life here can be this cool and fun..
Guess I am really lucky to know them..
I guess it's over.. the fever, the numbness, the dark days are finally over, though, I dare not say that it is gone entirely. All I can say is I'm done with it.. It's time to start afresh, to a new chapter..
Been thinking to change my blog to some short stories.. For someone who is not really good with words, that may seems too much.. But, I'll give it a try.. After all, it won't kill me.. Hope everyone can support me.. :)
Stay tuned..
Sincerely,
Broken man.
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