It was only just a dream

It was at that moment that i felt emptiness.. it's been quite some time since the last, and it feels as though i'm now quite used to that feeling now.. perhaps, it ain't that hurt.. though it feels kinda different.. Everything seems so real, so close that I was finally convinced that the time is now, I've found it.. and it happens just like that, we were so good together, it seems as though we are meant to be.. but it turned out that she is still holding on to someone.. Somehow i respect that, i understand it.. But the one thing that i cannot accept is to leave, if fate has brought us together, it must have been for something.. It happens that what i have is too much, too deep and too strong to let go.. I refuse to leave, after all that we've been through.. How can u ask me to leave just like that?

If everything is just a dream, I hope fate has never even brought you and me together.. I hope I've never attracted to you.. I hope you'd not have given me everything.. But it's now too late for that, I've come too deep into you.. If time is what you need, if holding on to him is what you want and if his love is all you know.. I'll respect that.. But don't you go around and told me to leave, ignore me just because you feel bad.. Don't you feel even bad when you do all that? I guess once in a while, we've gotta really sit down, calm ourselves and feel for ourselves with whom our heart beats harder.. If it's meant to be, it will be..

If it's meant to be, it will be..

Love, Who's never been in love? Everyone is searching out there to find that so-called 'happily ever after..' The question is 'Does it even exists?' It might exists, but how many people in this world manage to find that 'happily ever after'?? Do happily ever after occurs only when a prince meet a princess? How many of us out there is that so-called honorable, brave, and whatsoever fairytale prince? And how many of the girls out there is considered to be that perfect beauty, kind-hearted and whatsoever princess? Hmm, I wonder..

So, what exactly is love? And what is like? Do love and like differ? If it differs, in what way then? Love, such an easy words yet its meaning remain such a mystery..
Here's some saying that i find quite cool and interesting..

I kinda agree with that, what's meant to be and what's not meant to be.. Who knows?
But trust me.. What's your will be your, and what's not, no matter how u try to get it, it'll still not be yours.. And love is just like that..
Some of my friends discussed with me regarding love, and here's what i conclude from what we had to say..
"Love starts from like.. when you like that other person, affections and all sorts of human feeling will emerge.. through which you will try to make the other party feels how you feels toward them.. When mutual like occurs, that's when love is build.. that's when love happens.."

Who needs love then? The answer of course and without a doubt is that everyone needs love.. Who the hell in this world wants to be alone forever? Being alone is not a fun thing and it's perhaps the saddest things.. The isolation, the feeling of solitude.. It just ain't right.. All of us needs company, yes.. And that's what friends is all about.. Though, sadly to say.. How much company can a friend really give, anyway?? They've got what they need to do.. When you need company, not many friends are ready and available.. It's not that they're selfish or whatsoever but that's just the limitation..

Every fairytale begins with 'Once upon a time. . .' and eventually ends with '. . .and they live happily ever after.' And in reality 'Happily ever after is just so once upon a time' agree?? That's just how it is.. Even people who is in love, who's in a relationship or people who's married might not reached that happily ever after.. This is my story, my tale and my legend.. I've been in love a couple of time but i guess it's not a happily ever after after all.. And sadly, it's one sided.. though it should be give and take.. Moving on and now still in search of that happily ever after and that so-called princess.. My princess.. She doesn't need to be a princess.. cause i'm not a prince.. ^^ She just need to be herself.. My other half.. and i hope that at the end of my tale.. '. . .and they lived happily ever after.' will be written on it.


P.S. Let's strive for our happily ever after, my friends.. And for me, i think i've found that girl~ i just hope that this time round, it'll not be a one-sided game again.. And i really~~ hope that she would give me a slightest signal of what she's gotta say 'bout it.. I need that chance.. As for all my friends out there who has been hurt and has given up on love, please, get right back up.. We all need love.. Perhaps that's not meant to be.. What's meant to be is up ahead.. After all, what's meant to be will always find its way..

Life's Game

Believe it or not, Life is like a game of poker cards. You will never know what exactly the next card which will be distributed to you or even when you choose the card yourself is. On the surface, you will only see the card that you hold which is the same as the rest of the cards out there. But, on the inside, lies your destiny. The card might be an ace that represent the biggest number that helps you win it all or even smaller number of whatsoever suits the card belongs to that will resulted you in losing the game. Life's game is just like that. When you see a problems or changes, what will you do? Some will draw a cards like the way in poker to try their luck and challenge their destiny, while some others will avoid it.


Spades, Hearts, Clubs and Diamonds. These are the four suits of cards that decides one destiny in poker card game. Life is full of choices, whatever choices you made, whatever outcomes you will receive. And depending on the choices one has made, the destiny of one is shaped. No one knows what the next card is and similarly no one knows what exactly will happen the next second of one's life. Whatever things that you are facing now, when it comes to make decisions, it'll take a lot of considerations and courage to realize it. One wrong move and you may lose the game. Will you draw the new card? will you take chances when everything seems disastrous? What will you do? The next card could be an ace of spade, king of hearts, queen of clubs, or 3 of diamonds. Dramatically, the next move will decide your destiny: win it all or lose it all.

Opportunity is there when problem occurs and it'll only come once. Miss it and that's it. The biggest challenge now is will you take the risks? What if the next card is the wrong card? but what if it is the card that you needed the most? As much as life is like a game of poker cards, It's unfortunate that one can never start a new game like the poker cards game where just by shuffling the cards and one can start over. We live our life only once. One wrong move and 'aha, congratulation, you have just wasted your lifeline.' You will have to bear the consequences of whatever mistakes you've done. One might have been given a second chance but it will then be a completely different scenario.

Note that one can never satisfy everyone and life is just too short and too precious to worry about everything. If one were to make a move when the outcome is somewhat perfect, one will never be able to make that move. Nothing is perfect, that's still the rule. Whatever that card is, just give it a shot; just do what you think is right. At least you have tried before you die. It's way much better than die without trying, ain't it?

P.S. Whatever choices you all have made in your life, i sincerely hope that it is the right choice just like this perfect spade suits in poker card game; even if it didn't, i hope that y'all will not regret the choices that had been made.

It's NOW or NEVER.. DO or DIE..

Have u ever been in a situation where the only way left for u to resolve it is to keep pushing forward and there's just no turning back?
Have u ever been in a situation where u don't have a choice? all u can do is to do it or u'll lose it or even worse..
Have u ever been in a situation where u simply wishes for something and yet u didn't even take the first step to accomplish it?

It's now or never.. we live in this world only once.. why waste ur time sitting around, doing nothing when u can start to take ur first step to live ur dreams of whatever it is ?


It's do or die.. when do is ur only surviving option, u just have to do it.. It's better to do and die with honor rather than wait and die without even trying, isn't it?

Lots of us, dream something.. and whatever it is, all that we can think of is how it's impossible and it only exists in fantasy.. perhaps, it's true,, but why not take a step to live it? however impossible it seems, if we try and put some efforts in it, i believe it'll result in something.. U may not achieve ur dream but i am sure u are one step closer to it..

Live life without regrets, my friend..
That's the happiest life that one can achieve..

P.S. I am going to start taking a first step to live my dream.. Let us strive for it.. A lil' bit progress to live ur dream is better than nothing and let it be a dying dreams, ain't it?

A World Without You

Call me naïve,
Call me stubborn,
Call me fool,
Call me whatever you want..
I just want you to know.. Life without you will be so empty.. I wouldn’t even dare to imagine that..
I don’t think I can live without you, at least for now..
You are the reason for me to fight, to strive, to survive..
I’ve been through living hell.. Walking my roads with guilt and sins..
Yet, you forgive me and still protected me.. Even if it means sacrificing yourself.. I am sure that you would do that..
You are the sole reason.. For me.. To keep pushing forward.. Till I finally reach there.. My Dream..
Whenever I felt that this is it.. I’ve had enough.. Just a lil’ thought about you.. Everything is alright and it starts all over again..
Believe me.. I really wish you could stay here with me.. Forever..
In this sick and rotten world..
Watching me grow, watch me fight for my dreams and watch me change this world with every single smile, every kindness, every tears, and every effort..
You’ve watched over me half-of-your precious life..
You taught me what is the right and what is wrong.. You taught me how to be an honourable man.. A man, who truly deserves to be called a Gentleman..
A strong soul, filled with firm determination, unbreakable heart and never giving up will..
I may not be the person you wanted me to be.. For I, choose my own path.. I will prove my worth..
And when I reached there.. Finally.. I’ll watch over you for the rest of your life..
I realized that you can’t be here with me.. Forever..
For we are all human being.. so small, so fragile and yet we shine so brightly.. Through hope, we survive.. Through wish, we fight.. Through dream, we create..
Oh, God, I hope and I wish.. YOU will watch over them, protect them and bless them..
I will never ask for more than YOUR protection and blessing..

I am not prepared and I am not ready.. To live my life in a world without you..

God Exists.. If You Believe..

People tends to ask for protections, fortunes, blessings from God whenever they are in trouble..
I, once, was such man as well..
I even lost faith in God..
There's no God.. God isn't there when i need blessings..
I even curse God..
And i am wrong..
Hell wrong..
Such a fool, ungrateful being.. i am..

The day without God, without faith.. perhaps, is the darkest hours in life..
It seems like God is against me.. Everything that i do will ended up in negative side..
I regret..
The sin.. i will never be able to wash that away..
All i can do now.. is to live life with faith.. with God..

God is always there..
All the things that had happened in my life.. success, failure, happiness, sadness, anxiety, excitement.. everything.. is all part of the Great God's blessings and tests..

God is there every seconds.. watching over you and me..
Everything that happens.. From the second you wake up, the moment you eat.. the moment you sleep.. it's all God's blessings.. And along the road of your life.. There's obstacle.. tests.. that you must overcome.. to survive.. to be the fittest..
If u have faith.. if u believe.. God will guide you.. help you.. to overcome it..
God will not be there.. if u ask for God whenever you are in trouble..

Live with faith.. my friend..
Live with God..
Cherish every seconds that you have..
There's no telling what'll happen the next second..
Appreciate the blessings, the tests..
Do not forget to thank God at the end of every day..
Every moment you pray, God will hear and enlighten you..

God exists, if you believe..

Smiley Mask

'I am strong..'
'Don't worry, i am fine..'
'It's/i'm alright.. really..'

These words can usually be heard when unfortunate things happened..
And i think sometimes these words are lies..

Sometimes people who said those words are actually the weakest person..
They are weak.. on the inside..
They fake a smile and say those words..
And yet tears fall within them..
They just don't wanna show their feelings..
They'd rather wore a mask of smiley..

Maybe they don't want others to worry about them,
Maybe they don't trust people as they had been deceived before,
Maybe they cannot share what their problem is,,
Maybe and just maybe.. there are just so many reasons..

But i respect those people who said those words..
I respect them..
Whatever reasons they have..
They must have their reasons..

Sometimes, people need time.. to be alone, to calm down.. to reminisce.. to recall.. to learn..
Sometimes people need supports, need opinions.. need help..

Understand them, respect them..
They deserve cares..

Nobody wants to be alone forever..
Everybody needs somebody..

Wearing a smiley mask is not an easy tasks..
And it doesn't feel good to actually wear one..